Galveston for the New Year

K and I are in Galveston. We decided to spend the last week of 2011 here and ring in 2012.

It has been an interesting week for the end of a long year. This year was a year of firsts and a year of loss. The hope is that 2012 brings  sense of renewal with it. Maybe a sense of purpose or a sense of belonging.

The view from our hotel balcony.

K and I have been talking that we both feel unsettled where we are. It can be summed up that we are where we are for now, but it doesn't feel like it is the right place. We aren't in a horrible place, it just not where we feel we fully fit. Sound strange? I know. It makes us both feel a bit awkward, but it helped to talk about it. The school I teach at is great about us. Fully accepting and all, but the state we are in doesn't allow us to feel relaxed about being open. We are in a bubble and the fear of going outside that bubble to find a place we really want to be is something we are both wrestling with.

We have a senior and junior in college, a senior and freshman in high school, and then our youngest is n 5th grade. We have realized there is never a right time to uproot and move, but how long do we have to wait to feel home? To enjoy our surroundings even when we aren't vacationing? Is that possible?

I guess it can be summed up that we are going to be looking for our place in the world this year. Where we fit into the puzzle and aren't trying to figure the puzzle out. I plan to be healthier at the end of the year than the beginning of the year.