Searching.... but for what, really?

I have been searching for a new job. Most of the time I can tell you where I am searching, but honestly its just out of here. Yes, I would prefer it to be near my hometown. I can't deny that. I would love to be closer to people that we can do things with.

My best friend from high school and I reconnected late last year and it has been nice to get to know her again. She knows all about Ker and I and basically said "I am glad you found someone who makes you happy." It doesn't bother her a bit that I am with another woman. I didn't get the "I'm ok with it" answer. She just asked the normal questions. How long have we been together? What happened with the ex? She knew him, so I wasn't surprised she asked.

My extended family is there. Though there is drama, its family drama that we have to get use to ignoring. LOL

One of the biggest pulls is that Ker and I are legal there. Fully married. The other stuff is honestly a bonus.

So why am I not able to get my foot in the door at a school district up there? What do I have to do to get a job offer? I have looked all over the western part of the state, every school district in a 10 county area. Nothing seems to be available right now. The two positions that were available - one I wasn't qualified for the other - they gave it to a coach.

So now I am here. Just here.

Thursday we drive up for the child exchange. Not funny. On Friday K and C begin the one month visit with their Dad out of state. Its going to be tough. I have never been away from them for more than a week. It will help that I gave K her first cell phone. She will be able to call and text whenever she wants.

It will help some that I leave Sunday and won't return until Friday evening for training in Dallas. Being away the first week they are gone may help, but they will still be gone when I get back here.

I want to be satisfied with staying where I am. Maybe that will come when I become more comfortable with the kids visiting their Dad. Maybe it will come when they return. Maybe it won't happen because I don't legally have a wife her in backassward state.

She's my wife - get over it.